Me in Two Movies

Have you ever watched a movie that really touched your soul? I had this chance, and not just once. I loved that movie so much; I wanted to live if only just a piece of it. And Before a Sunrise, I felt some of the scenes of the movie in my life.

Then I watched the second part of the movie, the continuation of the beautiful story after years. Once again I felt a warm touch on my heart. You can find it in the rows below... But I don’t want for my story to follow the movie script, I want to live my own history and to have my own Before Sunset smile.

I always feel like a freak because I’m never able to move on like this. People just have an affaire or even entire relationships, they break up and they forget. They move on like they would have changed the brand of cereals.

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with because each person has specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship when it ends really damages me. I never fully recover. That’s why I’m very careful with getting involved because it hurts too much. Even getting laid. I actually don’t do that.

I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I’m obsessed with little things.

Maybe I’m crazy but when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late at school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at the chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk or ants crossing the road... little things.

I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details so specific to each other that move me, and that I miss... I’ll always miss. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.

Like I remember the way your beard has a little bit of red in it. And how the sun was making it glow that morning, right before you left.

I remember that and I miss it! I’m really crazy, right?

What's the movie that touched you so that you still feel that unique sensation on face? Don't hesitate to use the comments section!!!